If you are reading this i have died or am alive but you are just going through my website. ALSO PLEASE DONT READ THIS IF YOU ARE TRIGGERED BY MENTION OF SUI*IDE OR EDS. Anyways this isnt an offical will so if i do die im not sure that anyone will even go through with what i want to happen after i pass away. Life as of 2020 has been filled with ups and downs. My life has been wonderful other than a few obsticles here and there. I am so overly thankful for anyone who helped me with even the tiniest issues. I value the help and attention people gave me. It really did mean the world to me. To the people who said or did bad things to me (unless you've apologized and i forgave you), look what happened bud. You suck and it sucks to suck! Its whatever though cause im dead and soon you'll be too. No one can escape death! At one point, you'll just have to face the fact that you are going to die. Its more real for others but even so you'll understand and accept it. Right now im thinking that i will either die from suicide or eating disorder related causes. who knows! I just might end up being killed by a falling vending machine! Life is unpredictable, take advantage of that people. But yeah, i have almost always dealt with super bad body image which probably lead to my eating disorder (at least that is one part of it) and suicidal thoughts and urges. I really never like to talk about those but no matter how much i would like to ignore it, it will never go away.
Hi! So now we are on the part where i explain where and who i want to have my stuff. Basically, it is very simple. If i was gifted something, return it who whomever gifted it. For example, my pandora ring was a gift from Angellina. Once i die, she would be the one to recieve it. Any plushies, back to the one who gave me it. Now, Mariana, what about your other things? That will be up to my family. I would wish that my room be left as it is unless it is abosolutely necessary. I want my family to have a little reminder of me once i am dead and gone. That is what i wish but obviously, they are the ones who really have control over that. Oh, i would also like to give all my money to Natalia since currently she is going through her teen years and im really not sure when i'm gonna die. If i die when she is still a minor, give her the money. If this still exists when she is 20 (which is super unlikely) then give the money to whoever needs it. Give it to the homeless and hungry people n the streets. Give it to the kids who are selling lemonade on the sidewalk. Give it to the children who need a place to stay or food. Give it to those who really need it. Obviously i wont need it, no ghost credit for me ;P. Anyways, seriously, i dont have too much to where everything needs a very very specific place. I will leave it up to my family to really. I will be dead anyways so it wont bother me aha.
Wow, we are already at this part. SO i would really like if i could be burried so that if my friends or family can visit me when you know its my birthday or a holiday. Just leave red or white roses on my grave (cause those are my favorite flowers) on my grave and i will totally bless you with my super magical powers. OR if my parents cannot afford that then i am totally fine with being creamated so that everyone could hold me in a necklace so that i will always be with them wherever they go. That would be so so cute. A mini-mari in a vile. I find that so funny omg. Anyways, back to my funeral. that is mainly all up to my family because obviously i will not even be there to expeirence it. All that i ask for is that i have a mariachi because i want to go down with a party. Do not think of my funeral as a time to mourn my death but as a time to celebrate my life as a whole and all the things that i made better or whatever, cheesy stuff. I also want mini subway sandwiches to be served. That is all i ask for. Thank you.
So yeah that is my very short will that sounds more like suicide note,,, BUT that is not the point of this. I was gonna add another paragraph that explain what i wish for the people who have impacted my life so so greatly. I will add a link to that at the end of this paragraph so you can check those out if you like THOUGH when i am posting this most of them wont be done and the page will be empty for a while or maybe your name will not be mentioned in general. If you are not mentioned in my soon very long list of notes and goodbyes, it is not that you did not make an impact in my life because if you are reading this, you for sure made some type of significant impact in my life. The thing that determines if you get a little note is that if i idnetify a certain point of my life with you. like if i think about a certain age and you come up as one of my first thoughts then you are more than certain to have a note made for you. Anyways, that is the end of this part of my fake will. Thank you for reading :]